I was disappointed with myself last Friday.
I woke up when Baby Loaf got up beside me & gave a sharp meow that morning.
It was 1230 AM! K had left for work
Loaf gets unsettled if he finds K or me asleep far beyond normal.
I got up. Brushed my teeth. Lay down for a bit more as I was still sleepy. Woke up. Saw it was 1.30pm. Loaf was sitting on the bench outside our door, looking intensely at me. My body was aching. I went back to sleep. Woke up. Saw it was 2.30PM. Nimki was lying by my feet & looking at me. I guess Loaf & him had changed guard.
I got up. Showered. It was too late for breakfast. I called in for a burger from MagSt Restaurant for brunch.
I thought of going to Work Bay, the shared workspace office that I go to. Banu came to work. I moved to the bedroom once she finished cleaning. I planned to nap for 10min before changing.
Next I knew K was back. I had been asleep for a couple of hours apparently!
We chatted for a while. She got on a work call. I lay down & shut my eyes. Woke up two hours later.
I was disappointed with myself as I had literally slept through the day. And, had binged crazily the previous night.
Therapy has taught me to accept what your body tells you. To take it easy without feeling guilty if needed. I sanctioned leave for myself. I realised that I was not lazy. I was felled by bodyache and the need for sleep. A result of
the pain killers & antibiotics that I had to take took because of my wisdom tooth extraction & post gym workout backache.The Buddha’s Lotus Sutra talks of the law of simultaneity of cause and effect. Every moment is an opportunity for a fresh start. I decided to do so.
I went to a few work dos in the days that followed. Caught up with industry folks. Networked. I woke before 9am yesterday & 10 today. I went to Work Bay. I went to the gym. I resumed work on the website.
I wrote, read, chanted. Repurposed leftovers. I love doing so. We went to our friend Shaswati’s house for dinner on Sunday. She packed us a kitty bag of leftovers. I had her kochurir alu torkari with toast for breakfast. I sautéed broccoli to have with the pepper pork she’d made. At night I shredded the meat from the burra kebab & made mutton rolls.
Nike in their latest campaign says ‘winning is not for everyone’. I believe that everyone is a winner. You have to define your own game and keep improving.
ps: I’ve got nothing against Nike. Most of my gym gear is Nike. They might pay me not to disclose that 😉
This appeared on Instagram on 6th August 2024.